I can still feel the wind racing through my hair, pushing my tears backwards in streams that lead almost to my ears. My little paint horse, Lakota and I would be loping for long portions of time along the trails as I poured out my pain and fears to him, attempting to let them sail away in the wind behind us. Those morning trail rides, just him and I, were precious moments of peace at a time in my life when I desperately needed it. Heavenly moments of healing from my horse. Moments that impacted greatly where and who I am today.
When I first learned that my sister had been diagnosed with an eating disorder, my fears of being overlooked became intensified. I actually think that I convinced myself that I was overlooked, and therefore acted like it. Which very likely led me to my own struggle with eating disorders.
Looking back on my growing up years (I'm probably still in those...), there's a lot of instances in which I felt that way. I now believe that it was a lie being fed to me by the devil himself, and because of believing that lie I acted accordingly. As a work-at-home-mom, I still struggle with feeling overlooked. When you spend the majority of your time with a tiny human that can't communicate clearly, and have days where you really don't even have the time to see anyone else, the enemy sees an opportunity and boy does he take it! And I have to wonder, how many others (not just moms or women!) are being fed the lie too? That they are overlooked, unimportant, and not worth the time of anyone of else. That they have to take care of themselves, or be the savior of themselves. How's that going?
Unfortunately, it seems that for some of us, we find ourselves in situations where for some reason or another, we feel overlooked. And it hurts. We have siblings that are younger than us and that need basic needs met. We have parents who are consumed with addiction and aggression. We have friends whose life crisis are more urgent than our own. We have co-workers who just seem to have a more "stand out" personality than we do. Or we simply live in a culture where acknowledging the people around us is more and more rare (uh, I think ALL of us can relate to that one).
My horse reminded me of something very important: no matter how overlooked I felt, I wasn't. He saw me. He listened to me. And he never turned away from me even though I was struggling. Just a couple weeks ago, I saw that very same horse, who I sold to a family friend a couple years back. He still saw me, knew me, and seemed to desire my company.
You know who else sees me, listens to me, and doesn't turn away? God. By him I am never overlooked. He saw me before the start of time, and he sees me far into my future. And the same is true for you! He sacrificed his very own son, so that you and I would have the opportunity and hope that death doesn't have to be our end. That doesn't sound like overlooked to me.
While nothing replaces the fact that we are SEEN, LOVED, and CARED FOR by the Almighty God, sometimes we need a little reminder. My horses served that reminder to me as a young girl, and my friends and family often do now. So here's a question for you: what or who do you have in your life reminding you that you're not overlooked? I can guarantee there's an answer, but if not, please connect with us! You are not overlooked by us here at Wild Wild Beauty!
I have another question too. This one is also a little challenging. I know it is for me....Who are you overlooking?
Your family or friends? We all get busy and forget to look at the people around us, or connect with the people we claim to care about. Take some time to catch up with friends, to ask they're doing, and to simply look at them.
Are you overlooking God? It's all too easy to do, especially with the devil is distracting us with lies. Don't overlook him. Listen to his truth, give him your time, and I guarantee you'll feel far less overlooked then before. You'll also replace those nasty lies with His healing and hope-filled truth!
"Humble yourselves, therefore, under the mighty hand of God so that at the proper time he may exalt you, casting all your anxieties on him, because HE CARES FOR YOU. Be sober-minded; be watchful. Your adversary the devil prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour. Resist him, firm in your faith, knowing that the same kinds of suffering are being experience by your brotherhood throughout the world. And after you have suffered a little while, the God of all grace, who has called you to his eternal glory in Christ, will himself restore, confirm, strengthen, and establish you. To him be the dominion forever and ever. Amen." 2 Peter 5:6-11 ESV.